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Weekends need to be shot...
Jul. 9th, 2006 10:13 pmI think I should pose a ban on weekends. Mine was both cool and sucky at the same time. I honestly didn't want to go anywhere on Saturday, but I got bullied into it. I sat around watching movies all Saturday, and went to Pirates of the Caribbean 2, last showing of the night (10:15pm.) It was very good. I got home and watched even more crap before turning in at 2am. Then, today, I did the same thing, only earlier. I watched movies, went to PotC II, and watched more movies. I got back to Machias about 9:30pm.
Originally, I had kind of wanted to go to PotC II with my friends, although we hadn't really hashed out the details. I feel like I've let them down, kind of, like I should have hung around until Sunday and checked back with them. I guess my weekend was...kind of selfish. I ate junk food, did nothing productive, and drank until the crappy cartoons I was watching were tolerable.
I think I need to quit drinking again. Or quit feeling guilty about drinking. Probably the latter. Granted, I haven't done it much, but after four-ish years without any alcohol, anything seems like a lot. I just don't want a repeat of the summer before I came to college; I worked a nine-to-five, and then came home, watched movies, and drank myself stupid...practically every night.
But then, there are benefits to drinking:
1. alcohol makes cramps go away. This is a very important reason to drink.
2. It's a useful cooling aid in the hot weather-- alcohol consumption does make your core body temperature drop.
3. erm... okay.... there is no three.
List of drinking cons:
1. No driving around after.
2. Flushing and sweatiness=gross
3. Nausea kicking in five minutes after drinking and lasting up to 4 hours...per drink.
I'm kind of all depressed these days, and I don't want to turn alcohol-for-fun into alcohol-as-coping. Is it especially perverse of me to want to stop doing something because I enjoy it/ have a good time doing it? I know drinking's not good for me. But if, instead of drinking, I were four-wheeling, would I stop because I enjoyed it? ATVs are bad for the environment, and you can hurt yourself, too. The bottom line is that I can't figure out where to draw the line between fun and danger on this one. being paranoid about it isn't going to help either, so I'm going to stop writing about this.
I'ma gonna go read more man-on-man fanfic action before I go to bed. ^_^
~ciao
Originally, I had kind of wanted to go to PotC II with my friends, although we hadn't really hashed out the details. I feel like I've let them down, kind of, like I should have hung around until Sunday and checked back with them. I guess my weekend was...kind of selfish. I ate junk food, did nothing productive, and drank until the crappy cartoons I was watching were tolerable.
I think I need to quit drinking again. Or quit feeling guilty about drinking. Probably the latter. Granted, I haven't done it much, but after four-ish years without any alcohol, anything seems like a lot. I just don't want a repeat of the summer before I came to college; I worked a nine-to-five, and then came home, watched movies, and drank myself stupid...practically every night.
But then, there are benefits to drinking:
1. alcohol makes cramps go away. This is a very important reason to drink.
2. It's a useful cooling aid in the hot weather-- alcohol consumption does make your core body temperature drop.
3. erm... okay.... there is no three.
List of drinking cons:
1. No driving around after.
2. Flushing and sweatiness=gross
3. Nausea kicking in five minutes after drinking and lasting up to 4 hours...per drink.
I'm kind of all depressed these days, and I don't want to turn alcohol-for-fun into alcohol-as-coping. Is it especially perverse of me to want to stop doing something because I enjoy it/ have a good time doing it? I know drinking's not good for me. But if, instead of drinking, I were four-wheeling, would I stop because I enjoyed it? ATVs are bad for the environment, and you can hurt yourself, too. The bottom line is that I can't figure out where to draw the line between fun and danger on this one. being paranoid about it isn't going to help either, so I'm going to stop writing about this.
I'ma gonna go read more man-on-man fanfic action before I go to bed. ^_^
~ciao
