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Post Daylight Savings Blues
Mar. 13th, 2019 01:20 am So I finally have a couple days off from work, and it's like...I can't settle into doing anything creative for myself. Which is dumb on account of there are so many things I could do!!! I'll admit all this is at least partly prompted by me finishing watching Black Butler (season 1) and feeling crushed in a glorious way. I'm putting off diving into that fandom; I'm trying to decide whether or now I want to also read the manga or just go with the anime as 'good enough' of a grasp on the characters.
I get this horrible feeling somtimes that I'm moving further and further away from where I want to be, writing-wise. It's almost an out-of-body experience, or like I'm watching someone else do the writing. I used to feel so much more....a part of the whole process, if you know what I mean. I'd have an idea, lose myself in it, and come out the other side eventually. I'd feel very ME in process. But now it's like who is doing the work? Because it's uncomfortably not me. (Not that there's much wrting happening, hahahha.)
Also, I am having a massive failure to come up with anything like an original idea. I want to write things, but what? It's like...someday I'd like to do a big original work, but I have no characters and, even if I did, I never have a real clear grasp on plot. I'll have an inkling, maybe, and then it just goes poof and all of a sudden my characters are standing around in a kitchen for the rest of eternity. (I geniunely feel terrible about all the characters standing around, stuck in my WIPs, waiting for the sun to explode. They're real enough, at least when I think about them. They've got their own lives that I'm standing in the way of.)
I gave up sweets for lentt, but maybe I should have made myself do writing things instead. -_-
~some other day
I get this horrible feeling somtimes that I'm moving further and further away from where I want to be, writing-wise. It's almost an out-of-body experience, or like I'm watching someone else do the writing. I used to feel so much more....a part of the whole process, if you know what I mean. I'd have an idea, lose myself in it, and come out the other side eventually. I'd feel very ME in process. But now it's like who is doing the work? Because it's uncomfortably not me. (Not that there's much wrting happening, hahahha.)
Also, I am having a massive failure to come up with anything like an original idea. I want to write things, but what? It's like...someday I'd like to do a big original work, but I have no characters and, even if I did, I never have a real clear grasp on plot. I'll have an inkling, maybe, and then it just goes poof and all of a sudden my characters are standing around in a kitchen for the rest of eternity. (I geniunely feel terrible about all the characters standing around, stuck in my WIPs, waiting for the sun to explode. They're real enough, at least when I think about them. They've got their own lives that I'm standing in the way of.)
I gave up sweets for lentt, but maybe I should have made myself do writing things instead. -_-
~some other day
